{"id":4871,"date":"2018-03-31T22:50:41","date_gmt":"2018-04-01T05:50:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/?p=4871"},"modified":"2019-07-07T16:34:51","modified_gmt":"2019-07-07T23:34:51","slug":"certain-things-in-my-life-are-now-declassified","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/?p=4871","title":{"rendered":"Certain Things In My Life Are Now Declassified&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Sorry for the long delay in writing&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>My life has entered a new chapter;  my father died on February 20th.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/dad_with_me.jpg\" alt=\"My Dad with Me.\" width=\"400\" height=\"331\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-4873\" srcset=\"https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/dad_with_me.jpg 400w, https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/dad_with_me-300x248.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 400px) 100vw, 400px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Things are certainly different, and for the next six months at least, I will be handling his vast empire;  which means my diving weekends are shot.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/tony_sopran0_look_alike.jpg\" alt=\"Tony Soprano?\" width=\"400\" height=\"326\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-4875\" srcset=\"https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/tony_sopran0_look_alike.jpg 400w, https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/tony_sopran0_look_alike-300x244.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 400px) 100vw, 400px\" \/><br \/>\n<em>People often mistook my Dad for <a href=\"https:\/\/www.hbo.com\/the-sopranos\/cast-and-crew\/tony-soprano\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">Tony Soprano.<\/a><\/em><\/p>\n<p>About five years ago, he was diagnosed with ALS (Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis) &#8211; the same disease that killed Lou Gehrig, Mao Zedong, David Niven and more recently Stephen Hawking.<\/p>\n<p>The cause is not known, but I personally think it was from him falling off a ladder several years ago or some asshole who sneezed in his face at an airport.<\/p>\n<p>It is my educated guess, and the reasoning is out of the scope of this post.<\/p>\n<p>With ALS, the person&#8217;s body slowly shuts down, eventually losing all mobility of the body.<\/p>\n<p>The victim is nothing but a fully functioning mind and a set of blinking eyes.<\/p>\n<p>There is also some very tragic psychological issues that go along with suffering the loss of all bodily movement. <\/p>\n<p>The doctors told him that he could get a feeding tube and breathing respirator and stay alive practically indefinitely, like Stephen Hawking did.<\/p>\n<p>But who the fuck wants to live like that?<\/p>\n<p>They gave him three years to live.<\/p>\n<p>His one dying wish, that I could accomplish, was to go to the grand opening of the <a href=\"http:\/\/www.johnwaynebirthplace.museum\/\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">John Wayne Birthplace &#038; Museum<\/a>, in Winterset, Iowa in May of 2015.<\/p>\n<p>Yes, he was a life-long John Wayne fan &#8211; except for the Duke&#8217;s stance on the Vietnam war.<\/p>\n<p>He often complained to me that I didn&#8217;t give him any grandchildren. <\/p>\n<p>I told him, &#8220;It&#8217;s hard for me to even get a date, but John Wayne had kids into his 50&#8217;s, so I still have hope.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Yeah, but the problem is, you&#8217;re not John Wayne,&#8221; he said.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/group_photo_iowa.jpg\" alt=\"Group Photo\" width=\"400\" height=\"300\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-4874\" srcset=\"https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/group_photo_iowa.jpg 400w, https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/group_photo_iowa-300x225.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 400px) 100vw, 400px\" \/><br \/>\n<em>My sister Kate (Secret Agent K), my father and me at the John Wayne Museum &#8211; 2015.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Here&#8217;s the posts of our trip, if you missed it:<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/?p=3703\" title=\"Classified Mission To Monument Valley\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">Classified Mission To Monument Valley<\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/?m=201505&#038;paged=2\" title=\"Classified Mission To Iowa \u2013 Part 1\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">Classified Mission To Iowa \u2013 Part 1<\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/?p=3761\" title=\"Classified Mission To Iowa \u2013 Part 2\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">Classified Mission To Iowa \u2013 Part 2<\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/?p=3787\" title=\"Winterset Rodeo And The Opening Of The John Wayne Museum\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">Winterset Rodeo And The Opening Of The John Wayne Museum<\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/?p=3836\" title=\"The End Of My Trip And Other Odds And Ends\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">The End Of My Trip And Other Odds And Ends<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Since the trip, he continued to slowly decline.<\/p>\n<p>He got harder and harder to understand when he would speak, but he never bothered to learn to use his <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Tobii_Technology\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">Tobii,<\/a> which would have given him a computerized voice.<\/p>\n<p>He stopped driving two years ago.<\/p>\n<p>About eight months ago, he started to need help getting up out of bed and up out of his chair.<\/p>\n<p>Late last year, he could barely eat and needed assistance in other daily functions.<\/p>\n<p>In January, we hired a part-time care giver.<\/p>\n<p>He did have a <a href=\"https:\/\/www.cpap.com\/\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">CPAP<\/a>, that helped him breathe when he slept.<\/p>\n<p>He told me, &#8220;The only time I&#8217;m happy is when I&#8217;m sleeping.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I was lucky enough to have said a lot of things to him that I would not normally have said to him if he would have died unexpectedly.<\/p>\n<p>His mind was all there, and was still able to text me as coherent as he ever could communicate with me, or anyone else.<\/p>\n<p>Five days after his 50th wedding anniversary, we were texting about job prospects in other cities for people who can&#8217;t find work in the Los Angeles job market.<\/p>\n<p>I suggested Reno.<\/p>\n<p>This is our last correspondence with each other&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/Capture1.jpg\" alt=\"Our last correspondence.\" width=\"241\" height=\"316\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-4884\" srcset=\"https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/Capture1.jpg 241w, https:\/\/psychosolodiver.com\/wp-content\/Capture1-228x300.jpg 228w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 241px) 100vw, 241px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>He slept for 21 hours after he sent that text, which was very unusual.<\/p>\n<p>He rang his siren to get help to get up and collapsed within the hour.<\/p>\n<p>The paramedics were called, but he had registered as &#8220;Do Not Resuscitate.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>His last wish was granted.<\/p>\n<p>Immediately before he died, he was still able to slightly walk and could still talk;  or as my Dad put it, &#8220;Talk like Frankenstein.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>He died at home, around his vast empire of stuff that he had acquired over the last 70 years, but without experiencing a lot of the things that I wish he could have.<\/p>\n<p>And so another chapter of my life ends and a new chapter begins.<\/p>\n<p>Stay tuned.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sorry for the long delay in writing&#8230; My life has entered a new chapter; my father died on February 20th. 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